Really sad to hear man. I missed my shot for Pico Day too, but there's always next year!
That looks pretty amazing! Though I understand the tax of time, submissions like this sure do turn out awesome whenever they do get done. Hope you can find a balance, better tools, and maybe this could be something for next year? Shows promise.
Timing things right is always an issue. I know it all too well. I would love to see something like this in Pico Day next year though!
Sounds like your own worst critic, maybe it would be good to take a break, breathe and come back to things. Personally, I love Wacom Intuos, even more than a Cintiq, but hey that's me :)
From the screenshot, it looks cool! Working deadlines can be stressful. Never to early to start for next year! Don't beat yourself up too bad, and there is no such thing as too much polish, just knowing when and where to make your stuff shine in more spots than other and how big of a budget, or how much time you have to dedicate to your project.
Goodluck, and please do relax! :D It will help your projects too, I promise.